The Inevitable
Well, it happened. My limerent object now has a fiance. She looks the very opposite of me. So now I know that I wasn't even someone he would find attractive. When I found out I didn't react, thankfully. But once I got home I collapsed in pain and tears. I knew it would happen but it doesn't make this feel any better. I need a purpose in my life to get over this. I am lonely, I've been in a holding pattern for years and due to my childhood am vulnerable to limerence. I know now what needs to be done and the choices are right in front of me. My life is not happy or purposeful and that is why this is happening to me. Time to change that and I know what to do to change it. At least now I know what to do and what to expect in this whole mess of limerence.